Wednesday, February 17, 2021



With the evening sun lasting longer and the light drizzle falling every now and then, I can see the spring is near. But today I can't see myself near to where I really want to be. Longing for something very simple things. The reality is making me feel like I am misplaced. I have always felt like I was here for something else and not this. Not something big but something different.

I wonder if I’m in the right place with the right people because everything seems to be too normal and routine. It’s sad sometimes and it overwhelms me.

 I fall in love with being alone with myself. It makes me feel good. I want to get lost for days in nature.  wander alone with music and feel limitless. Gaze the stars without thinking of the role which I have to playback all over again. Riding a motorbike in the rain and sleeping in the tent,  suffering to climb the hill, and gasping the view from above is what I am longing for right now.

 So as the spring starts and the baby animals fall on the ground, while the flower blooms and everything comes to life I also see the space between where I am and where I wanna be getting smaller. The future is definitely better and I am hoping that the things I am longing for today be my routine in the future.





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